Friday, October 31, 2008
Indecisive
I have so many mixed emotions today.. well I've felt like this for a few days.. but add the whole Halloween/should be doing something tonight thing in and I feel kind of lonely. Eric is at work till 10:30 tonight and I don't feel like being all that social but at the same time I'm really lonely and feel like I should be doing something tonight. Once again I feel like I want to get out of town. Maybe I just want to have a purpose. I want to sleep and have a party all at the same time. I think I need to have this baby because the hormones are getting to me!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Trying to Relax
Finally just got done with my little paper thing for my 6-week class that ended. It wasn't a huge burden but feels good to be done.
I'm just looking ahead to see what is next on my plate to get done. I work this weekend so I will have plenty of time sitting at the desk to get stuff done. One of which is writing my last sermon for senior preaching.
The last couple of days I have been a little more nervous about how classes and stuff are going to get done and how that is all going to work out. I talked with one of my profs and he was so great about everything. He said just keep doing the work for the weeks and we will just figure it out when we need to. He also reminded me that we are over half over with course work so not to worry too much. Made me feel a lot better and to just relax about school work a little more.
And tonight is Grey's. I have a couple of friends coming over and I plan on just relaxing. I been having trouble sleeping lately and I think it's because stress and hormones. Taking some me time should hopefully help.
Speaking of me time! I scheduled Eric for an hour massage with K today for Monday morning and I scheduled myself for a half hour again on Tuesday afternoon. We are going to work on my lower body this next time and stretching a little more so I am more prepared for labor. Hopefully this baby can wait to come till after then!
I'm just looking ahead to see what is next on my plate to get done. I work this weekend so I will have plenty of time sitting at the desk to get stuff done. One of which is writing my last sermon for senior preaching.
The last couple of days I have been a little more nervous about how classes and stuff are going to get done and how that is all going to work out. I talked with one of my profs and he was so great about everything. He said just keep doing the work for the weeks and we will just figure it out when we need to. He also reminded me that we are over half over with course work so not to worry too much. Made me feel a lot better and to just relax about school work a little more.
And tonight is Grey's. I have a couple of friends coming over and I plan on just relaxing. I been having trouble sleeping lately and I think it's because stress and hormones. Taking some me time should hopefully help.
Speaking of me time! I scheduled Eric for an hour massage with K today for Monday morning and I scheduled myself for a half hour again on Tuesday afternoon. We are going to work on my lower body this next time and stretching a little more so I am more prepared for labor. Hopefully this baby can wait to come till after then!
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Doctors Appointment
Just had a doctors appointment. I was really disappointed with the doctors office today. I got there at 2:00pm thinking that my appointment was at 2:10pm. Only to find out that I was scheduled at 12:10pm. I looked in my little blue bible to see if maybe I had assumed something or if I made a mistake. What I had written down was 2:10pm. Who knows who messed up. Good possibility that it could have been me. At that point it didn't matter I had to figure out a solution. Once the receptionist told me that I was suppose to be their earlier she just stood there and stared at me. So I asked her what I should do next... I don't know how this whole thing works. All I know is that I am suppose to see the doctor once a week. If it had just been me I probably would have gone home and come back next week, thinking whatever. But the problem is that it's not just me anymore and I have this other life inside of me that I need to think of. Not fair to him if something is wrong and I would never forgive myself if I just didn't care enough to make a stink about seeing the doctor. So I asked what I should do next.... She told me I could either reschedule for Friday (ugh) or see the nurse. Well, I know that I am suppose to see the doctor only now and I know nurses are good people but what do they know about a prenatal check-up? So I questioned the receptionist if I could see the nurse. She just kind of looked at me again and was like or you could come back on Friday. Then I asked her again, but is it "okay" for me to see the nurse? She was like yeah, why not. I just wanted some more information to be able to make an informed decision, I'm not asking for your attitude. So I said okay, I will see the nurse then. About 5 minutes later I get called back to do the lab thing. The lab person walked past the bathrooms that I knew about to pee in the cup and as she was about 5 feet in front of me she says to no one walking in front of her, "can you give a sample." At first I wasn't even sure if it was her talking much less to me. And I was confused because we had passed the bathrooms. So I asked her, "What was that?" Then she asked me again so I did that whole business and went into the lab to check weight and blood pressure. Found out that I lost 2lbs and my blood pressure is down... which is great! But the lab person was super impersonal and just kind of like whatever. Then she took me into a room and told me to get undressed from the waist down and wait. Never told me why I was undressing or what was going on. So there I sat for a few minutes waiting for the "nurse" and just feeling like crap. Maybe a little like cattle being herded around. And I started lamenting about my doctor in Sioux Falls. How much I loved Dr. Scott and all the of staff. I lamented about how I never felt like I was just a thing. And being 37 1/2 weeks prego.. and emotional the tears started coming. I tried really hard to keep it in. If I could just get through the visit and then go out into my car and let it go. I tried so hard but the nurse practitioner came in and I just couldn't hold it in. And she noticed right away and was very concerned. And so we talked. And she was very understanding. And I found out that she wasn't just a nurse but a nurse practitioner... big difference. And I feel bad because it's not about being nervous about labor. I just am not really worried about that part. I am looking forward in a weird way to experiencing the process. I am looking forward to overcoming and having this little miracle at the end. And the other part is that I like my doctor here. Dr. Baker has been great, it's just her staff that I have not been impressed with at all. And I just needed to be frustrated for a while because I use to have the whole package.
But after really listening to me and talking we did the check-up. She checked the baby's heartbeat. Everything is good there. I was able to ask the questions I wanted and she was so great about answering them. I was surprised to learn that I am 1cm. I guess that doesn't mean that the baby is going to come tomorrow or the next day. It just means that my body is really preparing itself and starting the process. Also if something would happen and they would need to induce, it means that it wouldn't take much to induce me.
So there you have it. An up and down day. Exciting to know that I am close to having the baby. It's also exciting to know that my body is really ready to have this baby. But also just emotional. And so I take it one moment at a time. And in those moments everything will get done.
But after really listening to me and talking we did the check-up. She checked the baby's heartbeat. Everything is good there. I was able to ask the questions I wanted and she was so great about answering them. I was surprised to learn that I am 1cm. I guess that doesn't mean that the baby is going to come tomorrow or the next day. It just means that my body is really preparing itself and starting the process. Also if something would happen and they would need to induce, it means that it wouldn't take much to induce me.
So there you have it. An up and down day. Exciting to know that I am close to having the baby. It's also exciting to know that my body is really ready to have this baby. But also just emotional. And so I take it one moment at a time. And in those moments everything will get done.
Wednesday Rambling
So I had a dream last night that I met the New Kids on The Block. I know.. weird. They were really nice in my dream and I was really excited to meet them. Who knew I cared so much????
Also, earlier in the evening when I took a little snoozer (that's fancy for nap), I had a dream that I was solving a murder mystery. Kind of like I was on NCIS or CSI. I think it had to do with some baseball thing or situation. (once again why baseball) I was all super detective person and solving the case one fact at a time. I also was making up the dream as I went, so I'm not sure if I was creating a tv show or solving a crime. I think this means that I have watched too much TV. Yup, pretty sure that's what that means. They have been having NCIS marathons from 4-7 every night on USA. I can't help myself. I have to have it on while I am making supper and I have to watch NCIS and CSI in the evenings. Us having DVR has not helped either because I can just record it and watch it later if need be. I wonder if there are any support groups for those who have murder mystery issues?
This morning I was walking into the campus center to work and it was kind of dark still. I thought I saw something playing or moving around on the yard. Then I decided that maybe I was just making things up so I kept walking. All of a sudden out of no where I was attacked. BY BIRDS! I have always thought that the squirrels around campus are plotting against the people but never the birds. Those sneaky birds. Two of them flew up out of no where and dive bombed me. I think I even let out a little screetch. It was great.
Today we have a doctors appointment at 2:10. Yay for peeing in a cup! The goal this appointment is to have maintained my blood pressure of for it to have even come down a little. Now that midterm stuff is over I'm hoping this is the case. I have already tried restricting some of my own activity and not adding to what I need to do. I would rahter restrict my own stuff a little then the doctor restricting it for me. Yesterday I took the whole afternoon off after my massage and just relaxed. I sat in the recliner as much as possible and elevated my feet. I can tell as the days go by it's harder to get the fluid out of my legs. Although I still can't complain because I haven't had as much trouble as a lot of women. Eric still thinks that his wishful thinking will bring the baby here on Friday. He is getting anxious for the little guy to be here.
So here is my goal for the day. My "to do list" if you will:
1. Write my final reflection paper that no one know how long it is suppose to be for OT class. (sometimes not having a specific number of pages that you have to write is freeing.... other times it's just annoying!)
2. Finish my online bible study for the Gospel of John.
3. Stop drinking the juice that gives me bad heart burn (I made some juice last night. It sounded great when I pulled it out of the freezer.. something about cherry, grape, and apple caught my eye. Sounded like a wonderful idea when I made it. The first glass was good around 8pm so at 11pm right before I went to bed I decided that a 2nd glass would be even better. I woke up around 1am and had the worst heart burn. It felt like my esophogus was on fire. I took some tums and drank a little 2% milk. Went back to bed, right after I went to the bathroom of course. This morning I thought that maybe it was because I drank the juice and then layed down that caused the problem. Just kidding. It's the juice. I drank some this morning again and I think that I now have a hole in my esophogus. Note to self: make Eric drink the rest of the juice.)
Also, earlier in the evening when I took a little snoozer (that's fancy for nap), I had a dream that I was solving a murder mystery. Kind of like I was on NCIS or CSI. I think it had to do with some baseball thing or situation. (once again why baseball) I was all super detective person and solving the case one fact at a time. I also was making up the dream as I went, so I'm not sure if I was creating a tv show or solving a crime. I think this means that I have watched too much TV. Yup, pretty sure that's what that means. They have been having NCIS marathons from 4-7 every night on USA. I can't help myself. I have to have it on while I am making supper and I have to watch NCIS and CSI in the evenings. Us having DVR has not helped either because I can just record it and watch it later if need be. I wonder if there are any support groups for those who have murder mystery issues?
This morning I was walking into the campus center to work and it was kind of dark still. I thought I saw something playing or moving around on the yard. Then I decided that maybe I was just making things up so I kept walking. All of a sudden out of no where I was attacked. BY BIRDS! I have always thought that the squirrels around campus are plotting against the people but never the birds. Those sneaky birds. Two of them flew up out of no where and dive bombed me. I think I even let out a little screetch. It was great.
Today we have a doctors appointment at 2:10. Yay for peeing in a cup! The goal this appointment is to have maintained my blood pressure of for it to have even come down a little. Now that midterm stuff is over I'm hoping this is the case. I have already tried restricting some of my own activity and not adding to what I need to do. I would rahter restrict my own stuff a little then the doctor restricting it for me. Yesterday I took the whole afternoon off after my massage and just relaxed. I sat in the recliner as much as possible and elevated my feet. I can tell as the days go by it's harder to get the fluid out of my legs. Although I still can't complain because I haven't had as much trouble as a lot of women. Eric still thinks that his wishful thinking will bring the baby here on Friday. He is getting anxious for the little guy to be here.
So here is my goal for the day. My "to do list" if you will:
1. Write my final reflection paper that no one know how long it is suppose to be for OT class. (sometimes not having a specific number of pages that you have to write is freeing.... other times it's just annoying!)
2. Finish my online bible study for the Gospel of John.
3. Stop drinking the juice that gives me bad heart burn (I made some juice last night. It sounded great when I pulled it out of the freezer.. something about cherry, grape, and apple caught my eye. Sounded like a wonderful idea when I made it. The first glass was good around 8pm so at 11pm right before I went to bed I decided that a 2nd glass would be even better. I woke up around 1am and had the worst heart burn. It felt like my esophogus was on fire. I took some tums and drank a little 2% milk. Went back to bed, right after I went to the bathroom of course. This morning I thought that maybe it was because I drank the juice and then layed down that caused the problem. Just kidding. It's the juice. I drank some this morning again and I think that I now have a hole in my esophogus. Note to self: make Eric drink the rest of the juice.)
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Habits
Today has been a great day. It's so nice to have finished 2 classes. (I will have totally finished 2 classes once I type my paper this afternoon). I would normally have class this afternoon from 1-4 but not anymore! I have extra time to relax and get homework done. Feels really good!
This afternoon I had a 1/2 massage. It was great. I feel so much better and didn't realize how tight I was in my shoulders. We only did a half hour because K thought it would be a good idea to make sure it's okay with my doctor before we go longer. I will talk to her tomorrow and am hoping that I can go back in a week or two and work on stretching and massaging my legs which will help with delivery. I also think I am going to send Eric to K. He could help Eric with his neck/upper back problem and I think help him with his new found lifting and working out regimen. K also helped me to think about asking the question of when I can work out again after the baby is born. Good things to ask the doctor!
So needless to say I'm glad I have had a little extra time to baby myself. I hope that being able to take care of myself physically and mentally will help me to be a better mother. I also hope that my better habits will help my child(ren) have better habits too.
This afternoon I had a 1/2 massage. It was great. I feel so much better and didn't realize how tight I was in my shoulders. We only did a half hour because K thought it would be a good idea to make sure it's okay with my doctor before we go longer. I will talk to her tomorrow and am hoping that I can go back in a week or two and work on stretching and massaging my legs which will help with delivery. I also think I am going to send Eric to K. He could help Eric with his neck/upper back problem and I think help him with his new found lifting and working out regimen. K also helped me to think about asking the question of when I can work out again after the baby is born. Good things to ask the doctor!
So needless to say I'm glad I have had a little extra time to baby myself. I hope that being able to take care of myself physically and mentally will help me to be a better mother. I also hope that my better habits will help my child(ren) have better habits too.
Monday, October 27, 2008
Oh Baby
No baby yet. Eric thinks that if he just names a time and date that the baby (and my body) are going to listen and the baby is going to come. He has officially named Friday for when the baby is coming. He is so silly... God knows that I have too much to do before the 23rd much less before Friday. Silly, silly, Eric.
This weekend the family was here. It was wonderful to have them around and to have them help get a few extra things in order. I finally cleaned out the crib a little more and it is no longer another storage bin. I also had the parents take a few extra things back with them that we don't have room for. One of them being the window air conditioner.
After the family left yesterday I took a quick little nap and then Eric and I went to Target to get a few extra things that we will need if the baby does come soon. Here's the list:
1. Diaper Garbage Can thing
2. Wet Wipes
3. Breast Pump (it's great how when you are standing in the isle trying to figure out what you should buy how many women walk by and try to help. All of them kept suggesting the same one so we were sold on it. At first I think Eric was a little weirded out by the "women talk" but then realized how nice it was to have advice from women who know more and had experience this whole thing. And those breast pumps are not cheap.. and it's not like you can try them out to see if you like them and decide you want to try something different. You are kind of stuck with it when you open the box. So that was our breast pump buying Target experience.
4. Extra Boppy slip cover things (not for in case but when the baby spits up all over everything)
I think that's all we bought for the baby. That's enought for him for a while. He is too expensive and he's not even born yet! And spoiled by the Grandmas.
This weekend the family was here. It was wonderful to have them around and to have them help get a few extra things in order. I finally cleaned out the crib a little more and it is no longer another storage bin. I also had the parents take a few extra things back with them that we don't have room for. One of them being the window air conditioner.
After the family left yesterday I took a quick little nap and then Eric and I went to Target to get a few extra things that we will need if the baby does come soon. Here's the list:
1. Diaper Garbage Can thing
2. Wet Wipes
3. Breast Pump (it's great how when you are standing in the isle trying to figure out what you should buy how many women walk by and try to help. All of them kept suggesting the same one so we were sold on it. At first I think Eric was a little weirded out by the "women talk" but then realized how nice it was to have advice from women who know more and had experience this whole thing. And those breast pumps are not cheap.. and it's not like you can try them out to see if you like them and decide you want to try something different. You are kind of stuck with it when you open the box. So that was our breast pump buying Target experience.
4. Extra Boppy slip cover things (not for in case but when the baby spits up all over everything)
I think that's all we bought for the baby. That's enought for him for a while. He is too expensive and he's not even born yet! And spoiled by the Grandmas.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Community
Tonight I was just thinking about community. What it means to be a part of a community and how important that is. I think that's what I miss about internship the most, being part of a community. A church community, a town community. Usually it takes awhile to build those relationships, figure out the system, where you fit in. Walking in as the "pastor" you get a different in, both within the church and in the town. It always takes time to build those bonds and earn people's trust, but becoming part of the community happens so much faster . I miss that.
I have a community here at Luther. And it was good to get back and see so many friends and colleagues but with not much time left it's different and not many people want to get attached. I know I am one of them. I have my people and I'm okay with that. It's also hard to really be part of the community too. There is so much going on and too much homework. It's more a temporary community and not the same. There are no football games to go sit and watch. No small town things going on. Maybe it's just that the Cities are too big for me. I miss the small community fun.
I'm not really sure what made me think of this. Just a thought for the moment and another realization about what makes my life a little more grounded and full. It's always good to realize a little bit more what I want and need in my life.
The other thing that I am sure of right now is that I need sleep. Only to be back here at the infodesk tomorrow morning at 7:30am.
I have a community here at Luther. And it was good to get back and see so many friends and colleagues but with not much time left it's different and not many people want to get attached. I know I am one of them. I have my people and I'm okay with that. It's also hard to really be part of the community too. There is so much going on and too much homework. It's more a temporary community and not the same. There are no football games to go sit and watch. No small town things going on. Maybe it's just that the Cities are too big for me. I miss the small community fun.
I'm not really sure what made me think of this. Just a thought for the moment and another realization about what makes my life a little more grounded and full. It's always good to realize a little bit more what I want and need in my life.
The other thing that I am sure of right now is that I need sleep. Only to be back here at the infodesk tomorrow morning at 7:30am.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Weekend
Today has been a good day. I slept in till 8:30. Did the dishes while making blueberry pancakes.. Yum! I didn't have to be to work till 12:30 so I was able to just relax and get ready slowly. Oh did I mention that I didn't have class today either? Well that we pretty great also. It's been a good day to get caught-up on life, rest, and homework. I have a little bit more to do for class tomorrow but that shouldn't be too painful. I just have to write about my feelings for a few pages.
The family is coming tomorrow. By family I mean my parents, sister-in-law and niece. I am super excited to have them around and to be here for the babyshower on Saturday. It will be good to see them before the baby gets here, especially since we can't go home fore Thanksgiving. Yeah you noticed that my brother wasn't in that list. That's because he is going hunting. I know where his priorities are now. :) He really doesn't like the Cities so that is fine with me, we will see him at Christmas. Eric's mom and sister are also coming Saturday for the shower. I know that it means a ton to Eric that they will be here and it will be so good to see them too! It's really awesome that they are driving up for the day.
The family is coming tomorrow. By family I mean my parents, sister-in-law and niece. I am super excited to have them around and to be here for the babyshower on Saturday. It will be good to see them before the baby gets here, especially since we can't go home fore Thanksgiving. Yeah you noticed that my brother wasn't in that list. That's because he is going hunting. I know where his priorities are now. :) He really doesn't like the Cities so that is fine with me, we will see him at Christmas. Eric's mom and sister are also coming Saturday for the shower. I know that it means a ton to Eric that they will be here and it will be so good to see them too! It's really awesome that they are driving up for the day.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Doctors Appointment
So I just got back from the docs. Everything looked good. My blood pressure was up a little so the doctor checked it again when I was in with her. Still up a little bit but she said that we would check it again next week and hopefully it has stayed the same or gone down a little. It was 136/70somthing when the nurse took it and 132/70something when the doctor took it. Dr. B said something about limiting my activity if it keeps going up. LIMIT MY ACTIVITY! I guess she doesn't know who she is dealing with! I don't know what I would cut out of my life right now besides these 2 classes that I'm finishing up this week. That should help limit my activity of writing papers but I'm not sure if that's what she is talking about.
Morning Rant
Defiantly getting to be that time of the year. It keeps getting darker and darker in the mornings when I get up. :( I like light I have decided and mainly don't like this time of the year because of the lack of sunlight. I have also learned about myself this week that it's not the getting up that I mind so much as the getting ready. If only I could just roll out of bed and show up to work. Probably wouldn't go over so well.
Today's To do List:
-See yesterdays to do list
I do have the project done but I have 2 1/2 papers to write for ethics. SO CLOSE! I might write a lament later today as I am working on them.
I have a doctors appointment today. Once I wake up I will be excited to go. It's getting closer and closer. 4 1/2 weeks left and he is defiantly gaining weight. I am so ready for him to be here and at the same time getting a little nervous that in a few weeks I will have a baby. I don't think it's totally real yet. I am also a little nervous about school stuff and that I will allow myself the time off to be a mom. I want to enjoy that time with him and not be stressed.
Also went through my approval interview with the two faculty I was assigned. It wasn't painful at all and they approved me. Good to have that done and I can check it off my to do list.
Today's To do List:
-See yesterdays to do list
I do have the project done but I have 2 1/2 papers to write for ethics. SO CLOSE! I might write a lament later today as I am working on them.
I have a doctors appointment today. Once I wake up I will be excited to go. It's getting closer and closer. 4 1/2 weeks left and he is defiantly gaining weight. I am so ready for him to be here and at the same time getting a little nervous that in a few weeks I will have a baby. I don't think it's totally real yet. I am also a little nervous about school stuff and that I will allow myself the time off to be a mom. I want to enjoy that time with him and not be stressed.
Also went through my approval interview with the two faculty I was assigned. It wasn't painful at all and they approved me. Good to have that done and I can check it off my to do list.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Procrastination
At the desk this morning again from 7:30am-1pm. Kind of a long shift but the idea is that I can get a lot of homework done and actually be forced to do it out of sheer boredom. We will see if that works. Just trying to get my surfing and brain turned on for the morning. Still feeling like I want to lay my head down on the desk and take a quick nap. Too bad that's not gonna happen.
I have my faculty approval interview today after class at 4pm. I was suppose to have a massage at 4:30 but because things haven't gotten going on this interview I was forced to cancel the massage and hopefully reschedule today for sometime this week. I REALLY need that massage.
It's also reading days here at good ole Luther Sem. In years past this would have meant a couple of days off. This year that translates into a lot to do both for school and at home. It's amazing how two of us generate so much more stuff to get done. We did laundry yesterday morning/early afternoon and yesterday evening I folded it. I finished up my presentation for this afternoon (still have a class this afternoon) and then headed to bed. I think I might be coming down with something so I want to nip that in the butt and get a little extra sleep.
Because I need to get a lot done this mornign here is my to do list:
1. Polish up my presentation for this afternoon
2. Work on my Ethics #3 paper
3. Work on Ethics #4 paper
4. And if I'm really good, work on Ethics #5 paper
Oh yeah, quick baby update. Tomorrow I switch to every week visits to the doctor. It's getting closer!
I have my faculty approval interview today after class at 4pm. I was suppose to have a massage at 4:30 but because things haven't gotten going on this interview I was forced to cancel the massage and hopefully reschedule today for sometime this week. I REALLY need that massage.
It's also reading days here at good ole Luther Sem. In years past this would have meant a couple of days off. This year that translates into a lot to do both for school and at home. It's amazing how two of us generate so much more stuff to get done. We did laundry yesterday morning/early afternoon and yesterday evening I folded it. I finished up my presentation for this afternoon (still have a class this afternoon) and then headed to bed. I think I might be coming down with something so I want to nip that in the butt and get a little extra sleep.
Because I need to get a lot done this mornign here is my to do list:
1. Polish up my presentation for this afternoon
2. Work on my Ethics #3 paper
3. Work on Ethics #4 paper
4. And if I'm really good, work on Ethics #5 paper
Oh yeah, quick baby update. Tomorrow I switch to every week visits to the doctor. It's getting closer!
Monday, October 20, 2008
Busy Weekend and Week
Quick little post before I finish uploading pictures from this weekend on facebook and then off to bed.
This past weekend we got out of town and headed towards the land of cheese, also known as Wis. We went to some friends wedding from college. It was so great to see them get married and I am so glad I was able to be there. I even stayed up till 12:30am Saturday night! I'm a risk taker, let me tell you!
Yesterday (Sunday) the drive back was good but once we hit town we were totally whipped. We really NEEDED groceries so we went to the store before we even came home because we knew we would never make it back out if we came home first. It took everything we had to shop and then carry the stuff up. We needed to do laundry also but that wasn't happening last night. Makes me REALLY miss living in Dells and having the laundry stuff in our own place. I keep reminding myself only a few more months of having to go down to the basement.
Last night I had a really hard time sleeping because my back hurt really bad. I think this happens when the baby is working on growing and gaining weight. Worked at 7:30am this morning so that didn't help at all either. Tomorrow morning I work at 7:30am again. I just keep telling myself that I will appreciate the paycheck when it comes.
This week I have so much homework to get done but don't have classes except for tomorrow afternoon. I will feel much better once this week is done and my family is here to visit. It's always good to have an event or something to look forward to!
This past weekend we got out of town and headed towards the land of cheese, also known as Wis. We went to some friends wedding from college. It was so great to see them get married and I am so glad I was able to be there. I even stayed up till 12:30am Saturday night! I'm a risk taker, let me tell you!
Yesterday (Sunday) the drive back was good but once we hit town we were totally whipped. We really NEEDED groceries so we went to the store before we even came home because we knew we would never make it back out if we came home first. It took everything we had to shop and then carry the stuff up. We needed to do laundry also but that wasn't happening last night. Makes me REALLY miss living in Dells and having the laundry stuff in our own place. I keep reminding myself only a few more months of having to go down to the basement.
Last night I had a really hard time sleeping because my back hurt really bad. I think this happens when the baby is working on growing and gaining weight. Worked at 7:30am this morning so that didn't help at all either. Tomorrow morning I work at 7:30am again. I just keep telling myself that I will appreciate the paycheck when it comes.
This week I have so much homework to get done but don't have classes except for tomorrow afternoon. I will feel much better once this week is done and my family is here to visit. It's always good to have an event or something to look forward to!
Friday, October 17, 2008
Ketchup
Why is it that when I am sitting in class I could find so much to surf online. I could not pay attention for years and still be fine. On nights like tonight sitting at the desk while it is so quiet in here, I feel like there is nothing to do. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I HAVE nothing to do.. it's just that there is nothing I WANT to do. The key word here is want, not need.
Tomorrow we are taking off at 7am or earlier to head to a friends wedding. I am SO SUPER EXCITED. I NEED to get out of town for a little, bit away from the people and just drive. It's been so long, or at least it feels like it; 3 or 4 months now. And before that I felt so tied down this summer at work. But the doctor said everything was okay and cleared me to go to WI. Not only am I excited to head out of town but I am so excited to see my friends get married. It feel like it has been forever since they got engaged and I am so happy for them. I just hope to stay up past 9pm. That's my goal for now :) Sad but true! The other goal is not to go into labor in WI. I told Eric we are taking the car seat just in case something happens. I think that if we had to go out and buy a new car seat that would push me over the edge. I like to flirt with the edge but not go over. I don't make for good company then.
So the last few days I have been fighting with BabysRUs. We had been given a gift card in the mail from a friend for there and decided not to buy anything until we know more of what we need. Well, I sent Eric there the other day to buy the maternity belt thing and they said that there was no money on the card. I just thought the money probably didn't get scanned on their right. Boy was I wrong. I guess I am just naive. Upon calling the company and hanging out on the phone with them for about a totally of 2 hours the last couple of days, I guess something went shopping online with our card number on October 6th. It sure wasn't us. So after all of the hassle and me being angry with the way the company has dealt with it, I got a call today saying they are sending us a new card for the same amount of money that was originally on the other card. So life is better and I don't have to worry about that anymore. While I am almost 35 weeks pregnant and in the middle of midterms that was the last thing I wanted to deal with. I was less than happy with the situation. All I can say is don't mess with the pregnant lady in the middle of a semester! But alas it should be cleared up.
My dad has been so cute about this whole pregnancy thing. He has been asking all sorts of questions and wondering about how big the baby is, how I'm doing, who is going to take me to the hospital if Eric isn't around. Just really good inuitive questions meaning he obviously has spent time thinking about all these things. The other night on the phone he asked me if I wanted my mom to stay with us for a while after the baby is born. I honestly don't know. I guess it depends how the delivery goes and what kind of temperment the baby has. That and I haven't done this before, I don't know what I need. But it was just so cute that he was all worried and thinking about me. My mom HATES driving in traffic and couldn't drive in the Cities so my dad would probably leave her here when they came to see the baby after delivery but would then need to drive back to pick her up. And I know he would do that and be fine with it. What a great dad! So we will see what happens and what I need.
Well that's for all until Monday when I am back at this desk procrastinating the things I need to get done.
Tomorrow we are taking off at 7am or earlier to head to a friends wedding. I am SO SUPER EXCITED. I NEED to get out of town for a little, bit away from the people and just drive. It's been so long, or at least it feels like it; 3 or 4 months now. And before that I felt so tied down this summer at work. But the doctor said everything was okay and cleared me to go to WI. Not only am I excited to head out of town but I am so excited to see my friends get married. It feel like it has been forever since they got engaged and I am so happy for them. I just hope to stay up past 9pm. That's my goal for now :) Sad but true! The other goal is not to go into labor in WI. I told Eric we are taking the car seat just in case something happens. I think that if we had to go out and buy a new car seat that would push me over the edge. I like to flirt with the edge but not go over. I don't make for good company then.
So the last few days I have been fighting with BabysRUs. We had been given a gift card in the mail from a friend for there and decided not to buy anything until we know more of what we need. Well, I sent Eric there the other day to buy the maternity belt thing and they said that there was no money on the card. I just thought the money probably didn't get scanned on their right. Boy was I wrong. I guess I am just naive. Upon calling the company and hanging out on the phone with them for about a totally of 2 hours the last couple of days, I guess something went shopping online with our card number on October 6th. It sure wasn't us. So after all of the hassle and me being angry with the way the company has dealt with it, I got a call today saying they are sending us a new card for the same amount of money that was originally on the other card. So life is better and I don't have to worry about that anymore. While I am almost 35 weeks pregnant and in the middle of midterms that was the last thing I wanted to deal with. I was less than happy with the situation. All I can say is don't mess with the pregnant lady in the middle of a semester! But alas it should be cleared up.
My dad has been so cute about this whole pregnancy thing. He has been asking all sorts of questions and wondering about how big the baby is, how I'm doing, who is going to take me to the hospital if Eric isn't around. Just really good inuitive questions meaning he obviously has spent time thinking about all these things. The other night on the phone he asked me if I wanted my mom to stay with us for a while after the baby is born. I honestly don't know. I guess it depends how the delivery goes and what kind of temperment the baby has. That and I haven't done this before, I don't know what I need. But it was just so cute that he was all worried and thinking about me. My mom HATES driving in traffic and couldn't drive in the Cities so my dad would probably leave her here when they came to see the baby after delivery but would then need to drive back to pick her up. And I know he would do that and be fine with it. What a great dad! So we will see what happens and what I need.
Well that's for all until Monday when I am back at this desk procrastinating the things I need to get done.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Tums and Maternity Belts: two of my favorite things
I just need to share quick before I work on finishing my Holy Spirit paper.
I have been having such horrific back pain. Well, it was just annoying and hard to stand up for the last few days. Yesterday afternoon/last night it was horrible. I thought that maybe I was going into labor because I looked it up and sometimes you can just have back labor. Who knew?!?! The pain was kind of coming and going about every 15minutes too. I thought I would just wade it out and see if I could sleep that night, if not then I would have to call the doctor. I made it to sleep and woke up a few times through out the night but managed to fall back asleep. I decided that if I wasn't able to fall back asleep then I probably needed to do something about it :)
I also sent Eric out to Target to try to find a maternity belt. What's a maternity belt you might ask? Well click on the link and you will see. Of course no such luck that Target would carry them. They just have them for you to order online. Who thinks.. I want to wear that! I think I will just get one and have it on hand. No one. You only get it and wear it if you have to, in an emergency. And in such emergency you don't have time to order it online and wait for it to get here.
Once I figured out that BabiesRUs has them they were closed so I couldn't call to see if they actually carry them or just have them online.
So this morning my back was feeling a little better and I could stand-up so I can up to work at the infodesk. When the clock struck 9:30am I called over the BabiesRUs and Yippie they had them.. and even carried them in the store. Amazing.
So I called up the hubby and sent him on a maternity belt run. What a husband! So I put it on just about a half hour ago and it is the best thing since tums! I just feel so much better. Life is good again!
The End
I have been having such horrific back pain. Well, it was just annoying and hard to stand up for the last few days. Yesterday afternoon/last night it was horrible. I thought that maybe I was going into labor because I looked it up and sometimes you can just have back labor. Who knew?!?! The pain was kind of coming and going about every 15minutes too. I thought I would just wade it out and see if I could sleep that night, if not then I would have to call the doctor. I made it to sleep and woke up a few times through out the night but managed to fall back asleep. I decided that if I wasn't able to fall back asleep then I probably needed to do something about it :)
I also sent Eric out to Target to try to find a maternity belt. What's a maternity belt you might ask? Well click on the link and you will see. Of course no such luck that Target would carry them. They just have them for you to order online. Who thinks.. I want to wear that! I think I will just get one and have it on hand. No one. You only get it and wear it if you have to, in an emergency. And in such emergency you don't have time to order it online and wait for it to get here.
Once I figured out that BabiesRUs has them they were closed so I couldn't call to see if they actually carry them or just have them online.
So this morning my back was feeling a little better and I could stand-up so I can up to work at the infodesk. When the clock struck 9:30am I called over the BabiesRUs and Yippie they had them.. and even carried them in the store. Amazing.
So I called up the hubby and sent him on a maternity belt run. What a husband! So I put it on just about a half hour ago and it is the best thing since tums! I just feel so much better. Life is good again!
The End
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Productivity
Yesterday I was actually semi productive. In between clicking the refresh button on facebook I actually got a lot done.
While I was at work Eric decided that we needed to go out on a date last night. It's been so long since we have just gone out, just the two of us. We are both really bad at inviting others or making plans with everyone else. I asked for some Eric time last night earlier in the week and I got date night. It was amazing! We went out to the Old Spaghetti Works downtown. It was just a cool little environment and REALLY good food. It was really good to catch-up about the week and I hadn't realized how much I forgot to fill him in on. Ooops! And then we got home, watched some tv we had taped and I went to bed so I could be back at the desk at 8:30am. Perfect night and I even got 8 hours of sleep in. What more could a pregnant girl ask for?!?!?! Not much that is for sure.
This morning got to work at the infodesk. Wrote my mission sermon for my Monday's senior preaching class. Was done with it by 9:30. Yay for the Holy Spirit!
I drempt about the baby last night again. I can't remember what but that it was something about holding him and how much I wanted to hold him. Granted I'm holding him in my huge abdomen area but it's not the same. I think he and I both want him to be out. He's not so much all about the kicks anymore as he is about pushing his body in a way that he gets a little bit more room to move. I was reading a book last night and he is now over a foot head to butt.. that doesn't even count his legs. No wonder I feel like a house. And he should weigh about 5lbs now. I had Eric take some pictures last night of how big I am. ( I will post them later as I get them uploaded off the camera) We then looked back on pictures from a month ago. HOLY CRAP! I have grown so much. It's hard to tell when you are with yourself all the time. No wonder I am so tired all the time and my back hurts. I still have a month left. How does that work?!?! There is no way I can get bigger, and if so how?
So my goal for the rest of the morning is to get this Holy Spirit paper finished. Ready, Set, GO!
While I was at work Eric decided that we needed to go out on a date last night. It's been so long since we have just gone out, just the two of us. We are both really bad at inviting others or making plans with everyone else. I asked for some Eric time last night earlier in the week and I got date night. It was amazing! We went out to the Old Spaghetti Works downtown. It was just a cool little environment and REALLY good food. It was really good to catch-up about the week and I hadn't realized how much I forgot to fill him in on. Ooops! And then we got home, watched some tv we had taped and I went to bed so I could be back at the desk at 8:30am. Perfect night and I even got 8 hours of sleep in. What more could a pregnant girl ask for?!?!?! Not much that is for sure.
This morning got to work at the infodesk. Wrote my mission sermon for my Monday's senior preaching class. Was done with it by 9:30. Yay for the Holy Spirit!
I drempt about the baby last night again. I can't remember what but that it was something about holding him and how much I wanted to hold him. Granted I'm holding him in my huge abdomen area but it's not the same. I think he and I both want him to be out. He's not so much all about the kicks anymore as he is about pushing his body in a way that he gets a little bit more room to move. I was reading a book last night and he is now over a foot head to butt.. that doesn't even count his legs. No wonder I feel like a house. And he should weigh about 5lbs now. I had Eric take some pictures last night of how big I am. ( I will post them later as I get them uploaded off the camera) We then looked back on pictures from a month ago. HOLY CRAP! I have grown so much. It's hard to tell when you are with yourself all the time. No wonder I am so tired all the time and my back hurts. I still have a month left. How does that work?!?! There is no way I can get bigger, and if so how?
So my goal for the rest of the morning is to get this Holy Spirit paper finished. Ready, Set, GO!
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Bondage of the Will
About a month ago I thought it would be a good idea to schedule myself till 9:30 last night and then 8:30-3 today and tomorrow. Who wasn't thinking, raise your hand. *you can't see it but I'm raising mine* I keep telling myself I can get a lot of homework done AND get a nicer paycheck. Maybe I should write that on a large piece of paper and hang it up on the desk. Maybe then I will really convince myself that it was still a good idea.
So I sit at the desk. Here is how the day will unfold:
8:30-9:30: Surf the internet, check facebook every 3 minutes to see if anyone has updated anything, blog, look at others blogs, sing to the radio, check facebook again, feed the baby some caffeine, check facebook again, check my email.
9:30-10: Take out my books and papers to write my Holy Spirit paper. 2,500 words, not too bad. I just need to start and it won't be so bad.
10-11: Start writing my Holy Spirit paper, check facebook again to see if anyone has updated anything.... come on people update something and make it good!
11-12: Tell myself that I have pissed away the morning and just really need to get this paper written. Try to convince myself that I will feel a lot better when it's done and I will really be able to relax.
12-12:30: eat lunch, surf facebook some more, check to see if anyone has updated any blogs, sing to the radio a little bit, check facebook some more, try to be a creeper on facebook but not very successfully.
12:30-12:45: try to convince myself to continue writing my paper. It's hared to get yourself motivated to continue a paper once you have stopped for a while.
You get the gist. This will be my day. I would love to say that I will/can break the bad habbits that I have developed but I'm not sure it will happen because I have a bound will. I know that's not what Luther meant by bondage of the will, but I think if facebook and the internet exsisted when Luther was alive he would better understand what a bound will really is.
So I sit at the desk. Here is how the day will unfold:
8:30-9:30: Surf the internet, check facebook every 3 minutes to see if anyone has updated anything, blog, look at others blogs, sing to the radio, check facebook again, feed the baby some caffeine, check facebook again, check my email.
9:30-10: Take out my books and papers to write my Holy Spirit paper. 2,500 words, not too bad. I just need to start and it won't be so bad.
10-11: Start writing my Holy Spirit paper, check facebook again to see if anyone has updated anything.... come on people update something and make it good!
11-12: Tell myself that I have pissed away the morning and just really need to get this paper written. Try to convince myself that I will feel a lot better when it's done and I will really be able to relax.
12-12:30: eat lunch, surf facebook some more, check to see if anyone has updated any blogs, sing to the radio a little bit, check facebook some more, try to be a creeper on facebook but not very successfully.
12:30-12:45: try to convince myself to continue writing my paper. It's hared to get yourself motivated to continue a paper once you have stopped for a while.
You get the gist. This will be my day. I would love to say that I will/can break the bad habbits that I have developed but I'm not sure it will happen because I have a bound will. I know that's not what Luther meant by bondage of the will, but I think if facebook and the internet exsisted when Luther was alive he would better understand what a bound will really is.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Things I Have Noticed Today
-- That I have only posted once this month and it's almost the middle of the month
-- I didn't realize that when people pass me in small spaces that I naturally suck in my stomach to allow them to get by. This doesn't work so well when you are as big as a house. And that people look at you like you are just standing in the middle of the room. Nope! I'm just really that big and I can't do anything about it. You will just have to squeeze through or go around.
-- I need to allow myself to rest. That sometimes I need to take that time even if others aren't super okay with me doing that. Sometimes I just need to do that for myself. I am not superwoman and I don't have to do it all and be all to everyone. And most people are okay with that. And I feel better now that I took the morning off and let my body rest.
-- I didn't realize that when people pass me in small spaces that I naturally suck in my stomach to allow them to get by. This doesn't work so well when you are as big as a house. And that people look at you like you are just standing in the middle of the room. Nope! I'm just really that big and I can't do anything about it. You will just have to squeeze through or go around.
-- I need to allow myself to rest. That sometimes I need to take that time even if others aren't super okay with me doing that. Sometimes I just need to do that for myself. I am not superwoman and I don't have to do it all and be all to everyone. And most people are okay with that. And I feel better now that I took the morning off and let my body rest.
Monday, October 6, 2008
Thoughts for Now
What to write about.... what even comes to mind at 7:50am on a Monday morning besides wishing I was still in bed. Or my lack of motivation to do anything at the moment. I don't even "feel" like drinking coffee right now. *gasp*
Got to work this morning and found the garbage can missing from behind the desk. Guess someone decided they needed it more then we do. Awesome... (note the sarcasm) It's just one of those items that you assume will be there and take for granted while you have it. It is also one of those things that bugs you and is hard to live without when it is gone. I guess this will teach me to be more appreciative of the garbage can. When it is returned I promise I won't take it for granted anymore and will pay more attention to it.
Then, the moment that I think I have it bad I hear someone's story or problems.... and I sigh because really, I have it pretty good. I don't have a 30 page paper due on Tuesday that I haven't even started. Gross!
My garbage can just got returned. One of the maintenance guys found it. life is good. I even feel that I have some energy coming back to me. It's the little things in life! I feel a little more complete again.... *sigh*
Got to work this morning and found the garbage can missing from behind the desk. Guess someone decided they needed it more then we do. Awesome... (note the sarcasm) It's just one of those items that you assume will be there and take for granted while you have it. It is also one of those things that bugs you and is hard to live without when it is gone. I guess this will teach me to be more appreciative of the garbage can. When it is returned I promise I won't take it for granted anymore and will pay more attention to it.
Then, the moment that I think I have it bad I hear someone's story or problems.... and I sigh because really, I have it pretty good. I don't have a 30 page paper due on Tuesday that I haven't even started. Gross!
My garbage can just got returned. One of the maintenance guys found it. life is good. I even feel that I have some energy coming back to me. It's the little things in life! I feel a little more complete again.... *sigh*
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