Mrs Jackle and Hyde ?

A quick blog for this Wed morning. 

First a little note:  I DON'T HAVE TO TEACH CONFIRMATION TONIGHT!!!!  Don't get me wrong I love the kids and I do really like confirmation, BUT with that being said, it feels really good to have a Wed off from responsibilities!  AND to spend with the fam. 

So on to my thought for the day.

I have been thinking a lot about our trip up to the Cities.  It really felt like going home.  As we drove into town it felt as if we never left and that we were going to drive to the apartments, walk up the stairs, and be home.

I found that I missed the Cities more than I realized and would love to just hang out in Uptown, watch the people, and just be trendy.  I miss the culture.  The fact that you can be just about anyone and fit in.  I miss family and all of the things to do.  I even miss the traffic (gasp). 

But then there is that otherside of me ....

The side that loves the country.  I love that everyday that I take the kids to daycare I get to drive on gravel road for about 3 blocks.  Makes me feel a little bit more country.  I love that I can drive 3 blocks and be out of town.  The stars are so much brighter.  Life is simpler.  I know the doctors and they know me.  I know everyone who owns and works uptown and they all know me.  In some ways that makes like simpler. 

I could go on and on about the things I don't like about both.  I could go on and on about the frustrations that come and have come with both settings. 

I think the question that I am really asking is:  What do I really want?  And where is God calling me to be?  What is good for me and most importantly my family? 

These questions I will struggle with for a few months, maybe more.  These two questions need to be resolved and I don't have any of the answers yet.  As I shake my magic eight ball and look for answers, 8 words come to mind.  "Be Still And Know That I am God." 

....... Wish I was better at being still   :)