Burst of Enthusiasm to Write

I am experiencing a burst of enthusiasm to blog more often. I have tried to blog more but sometimes my computer freezes up at work. GRRR!!! They gave the young one who likes to multi task on a computer, the super slow one with super low memory. I guess that's the pits of being the intern.

I was sick but am finally feeling better. I hate head colds and I my mono seems to creep in whenever I get sick. I lost 3 days last week.

I have decided that I'm spending too much time at work. I had dreams all night long about church. Not really any church in particular. And I'm not really sure what they were really about, except that it had to do with church. I need to get out more!

Did some home visits this morning. I took communion to some shut-ins. It was my first time taking communion to people at home and did the words of institution and all that. I feels as if it should have been a bigger thing, more of a momentous experience, but it really wasn't. I really enjoy it, don't get me wrong, but it felt like I have been doing it for years. Maybe that's just the way it's suppose to be? On Christmas day I am going to be presiding over communion. Maybe that will feel more momentous?

Friday we are heading to Eric's parents for our Goldammer Christmas. I have a feeling it's going to prove to be a long weekend. We are having our Christmas opening on Sat night and then driving back to Dells for church in the morning. Ugh.. another long weekend!

I feel like I should end this with something profound but I'm not really sure if I have anything. ... oh maybe I do. I was sitting in church the other day and saw the Sanctuary in a different way then I had ever seen it before. The architecture was different some how than I had been looking at it before. I just love when old things, or things that we look at every day, look different and new some how. Maybe a view from a window and you spot something you never noticed before. Maybe a way you looked at something and a new revelation came to you that changed your prospective. It's just interesting how we change and not necessarily the thing or situation.

A day in the life of Sarah

First of all I would like to say that I am ecstatic about our new car. It's a camery and we just got it last night. Eric drove it home because I will be driving it every day so I thought that's the least I could do. Aren't I so sweet! :) Last night when I finally got home from church around 9ish I took it for a spin around town. It's so wonderful! I can't wait to take it on a road trip.

Second really quick thought I had to share.....
This is so my life... I just happened to look out the window of my office and what do I see... a cat busy eatting its latest catch, a bird. Yummm... He spotted me and took off now, so of course I have a dead bird just hanging around outside of my window. I suppose that this whole cat and dead bird thing is better then the little boy peeing near my window. That was a whole lot more embarrassing!

Life Struggles

Today I'm struggling with people, relationships, helping people, leading people, how you help and not hinder. What if someone doesn't really want to be helped? When do you give up? When is it time to let go? When is it time to keep fighting for that person, or people in general.

I guess part of this is about friendships in my own life, and part of this is about being in the ministry. It's hard to guide and lead people when they really don't want to be lead. Or they can't see it for themselves. We are stuborn people. Very, very stuborn. Me included.

How far do you, or are you even able to enter into peoples lives? How far should you safely enter without getting sucked in yourself? Where is the line? Where is my black and white world where there is a yes or no answer. Can I just contiune to circle C because I'm guessing that it's my best choice?

Why is life so complicated at times. And at other times I feel like I have it all figured out. Why are relationships so messy and yet the most meaningful thing that we will ever share with another person. Family, friendships, and marriages.

When is it time to let some frienships go. Not that they are bad or you are bad but you have grown apart and that is okay. You will still see them on occasion, you keep them in your prayers, but life has pulled you in a different direction and that's okay.

I want my burning bush. I want God to tell me the correct answers and not in parrable form. I want a step by step direction book of how to handle every situation.

This business of loving our neighbor is so complicated. Couldn't Jesus have picked an easier commandment?!?!

Small Update

I had spent all this time the other night updating my life. Then I went to publish the post and it wouldn't do it. So I tried....and it didn't work. And now I am super tired. It's been a crazy last couple of days with cluster meetings in MN, a funeral today, and then council meeting tonight. I also am trying to get back into working out again and decided to do that when I got done with my crazy day. Still at the drained from working out stage but am looking forward to it giving me more energy.

One last note before I crash.... where did the sun go?!?!?! I NEED SUN! I don't do well with a ton of rainy days. I need light and sunshine and happiness. If anyone finds the sun please let me know! I would like it back.

More soonish.

Memories

I love memories.

I am sitting in our big lazy boy chair and thinking about memories. The memories that have been made. The memories that are being made, second by second, minute by minute. The memories that are to come. What a wonderful gift of life.

I think of this because I know that I'm at such a wonderful memory making point. I know that this scary time of internship and meeting knew people are also about making memories. That to make memories things need to change. And change is scary. BUT without that change and growth and scariness there would not be room for new people, new memories...

The beginning

2nd day on the job and I'm feeling a little better. I have some more direction and feel like I have more of an idea of what I am doing. Tomorrow might be different, but today is pretty good :)

Tonight was confirmation. My 9th graders didn't start tonight, that's next week, but it gave me a chance to sit in on some of the other grades and get an idea of what the expectations are. I sat in on the 11th graders who are getting ready to write their faith statements and be confirmed. PM was giving them a lot of heavy theological ideas and they seemed to be taking it all in. It was good for me to hear the gospel again and to know that PM and I's theology is very similar. I was also impressed that he didn't treat them like they were dumb but on the total opposite side, gave them a lot to think about. It was awesome!

First Day

Today was my first day at "work." I'm still trying to find the ground under my feet. I moved my books and stuff into my office. In our little apartment I have so many books but now that they are in office I don't think I have any. What a weird feeling. We went to the nursing home for afternoon service which we are only responsible for every other month. Talked with the pastor a lot about what I think I want to do. We have decided that I will be responsible for 9th grade confirmation. We stopped by the high school and met some of the staff and saw the school. It's been a good day. Overwhelming and underwhelming all at the same time. It's hard not really knowing what exactly I am suppose to be doing. It's hard to continually ask questions and want things to do when I know that Pastor Mark is just so busy and needs time of his own to get things done. But it will come and I will find my place.

It's a different kind of job that is for sure. I think I'm going to like it.